Once again this is not the post I thought I’d write, last week or this.. several things came up today which prevented me from finishing what I had planned. The best laid plans of mice and men….
Today I’ll attempt to write a little more on Montgomery’s journals. I don’t think I’ll even come near to doing them justice. My head is swimming from various directions and paths to take. Thank you for being my test subjects as I sort this all out.
One of the most fascinating aspects of L. M. Montgomery’s journals is that she introduces the individuals she writes about. I find this fascinating and for a while in each new volume I did this as well (I only discovered that she did it in the past month). Now, I don’t really. Maybe it would do better for my character development if I tried it again.
But one thing, which Anne speaks about to Gilbert in Anne of Avonlea (more on that tomorrow) is after Gilbert asks her what is wrong,
“Nothing very dreadful. I was just trying to write out some of my thoughts, as Professor Hamilton advised me, but I couldn’t get them to please me. They seem to still and foolish directly they’re written down on white paper with black ink. Fancies are like shadows… you can’t cage them… perhaps I’ll learn the secret some day if I keep trying…” (p 70 in my copy; fourth paragraph in “the pointing of duty”)
Anne, while you are but 17 when you speak these words, are you sure you aren’t a decade older? Perhaps it is when I see how silly some of my frustrations are when I write them out. Or how I often make mountains out of a few grains of sand, that seeing how silly they are helps me keep in touch with some sort of reality. I guess.
In the meantime, I’ll just keep trying to carve out minutes to write. I’m not sure yet if I’ll do nanowrimo. I have a very busy November ahead of me, and if I can’t shake this sinus/head cold thing I’m going to be very very miserable.
To those of you with long hair who might be able to help me puzzle this out. One of my fibro “trigger points” is a knot on my left shoulder a short bit from the base of my neck. However, I also keep my hair in a low bun and sleep like that. Do you think the current knot is a fibro-flare-up or from my hair? While no one but E sees it these days, I don’t want to cut it unless I have a good need. Thoughts? Suggestions? I’ve worn my hair “down” the past few nights and it hasn’t helped but… thought i’d ask.